The Motherhood I Didn't Think Was Possible

After having my first child, I was constantly fatigued and exhausted. I felt embarrassed and ashamed that I was being so “lazy.” About a year postpartum, I started making some changes and noticed a significant improvement in my energy levels. I began to feel what I thought was normal again, so I decided I felt well enough to get pregnant a second time.

Throughout my second pregnancy, after the first trimester, I was worn out, angry, impatient, and depressed. I thought everything would get better once I wasn’t dealing with “the problem”—pregnancy hormones. Then postpartum came for the second time, and I was worse than I had ever been.

I was barely eating, lacked any loving affection toward anyone, and felt completely unlike myself. I was so deeply depressed that I became a risk to my own life. Eventually, I had to admit myself to an inpatient treatment center. The treatment helped slightly, but only temporarily. Once I left, everything changed.

God took my hand and showed me a path toward restoring my mind and body through nutrition and the Spirit. I dove deeper into holistic health than I ever had before. I completely changed my diet and lifestyle, and the results were literally life-changing. My whole life slowed down. What once felt rushed, burdensome, and stressful became sacred and manageable. I started actually waking up in the mornings instead of dragging myself out of bed. I started laughing again. In fact, I didn’t realize until I began healing that I had gone months without laughter. The suicidal thoughts were gone. The emptiness and anger had dissipated. The sluggishness and fatigue were replaced with energy and excitement. Instead of feeling eager for each day to be over, I found myself looking forward to the day ahead.

I know what it’s like to love your children deeply while feeling like you’re barely surviving motherhood. I know what it’s like to feel exhausted, disconnected from yourself, and wondering why motherhood feels this way.

That’s why I created A Ray of Health. Not because I have all the answers, but because I’ve walked this road myself. My goal is to help mothers uncover and address the root causes that may be contributing to their fatigue, low mood, and loss of vitality, while supporting them in making sustainable changes that nourish both body and spirit. Healing is possible. And while every journey looks different, I would be honored to walk alongside you as you begin yours.